It feels like everything is stuck. I am stuck in the same place and have no idea how to move forward (or even back for that matter). I can't get thoughts out of my head, into words or writing. It's become nearly impossible to even compose a simple email, even if it is completely trivial and has no mention of feelings. Forget about talking to actual people. I miss the person I used to be or maybe I miss that it used to be relatively easy to be that person. I can't even connect with most of the on-line DBM world. I feel like I don't fit right now because those that are like me (not pregnant and a ways down this road) have found other things to focus on and aren't here all the time, feeling awful and wondering when things will change. I would love to have something else to focus on but nothing interests me, beyond endless games of Spi.der Soli.tare, or else it involves being around "normal" people which I still can't quite manage.
(That's as eloquent as I can be right now.)