22 months

It's the first "3rd" since C.S. arrived. Having her here doesn't make it any better that Reid isn't, but it definitely leaves less room in my brain for thinking about it. I want to have come to some wise conclusion about how to deal with missing my son while loving my new daughter but wisdom is well beyond the ability of my sleep-deprived brain. I just know that there is still a Reid-shaped hole in my heart, despite the fact that there is a new C.S.-shaped piece of heart there too.

My friend sent me these flowers right after C.S. arrived.

I don't think she could have done any better. It's the perfect representation of my children and my heart.

I can't believe that it's only 2 more months until Reid's 2nd birthday. 2 years seems like forever and in some ways it has been. So many things have changed in the last 2 years. I'm trying to believe that C.S.'s arrival is the start of a happier chapter of my life (thus the new "cheerier" blog design), but I know that I still have plenty of sad moments left to go through too. I hope you will all stick around even if I start blogging about good days with D and C.S. and my attempts to be crafty in between posts about missing Reid. I still need the support of my fellow DBM's to get through the rough days and I hope to share the good days with you too.