Sunday, March 30, 2014

Still here anyone out there? I'm still here and I still want to write but I seem to have lost the ability to express myself. From the outside I look like a functioning human being, but on the inside I feel like a complete disaster.

Next week will be 4 years since Reid died. I always thought that by the 4 year mark I'd be some kind of better or normal or okay.


Glo said...

I'm still here.....not posting much myself but will try to soon. ((Hugs)) as you approach Reid's 4th birthday.

KnottedFingers said...

I'm still here love! Coming back from the world of non posting myself.

Huge gentle hugs approaching Reid's 4th

Maria said...

Hello. It's been a while since I came here to read your blog. I don't think any year mark will ever be easy.

Last week was Thea's three year mark. Wasn't easy either.

I think the writers block is epidemic lately.

Big hugs


Big Love, Big Acceptance - or so I say said...

Yup, still here from time to time too. Think about writing my "fond farewell" post as I don't write much anymore (& even made my blog private to keep others from finding it cuz I was getting some yucky sex blog stuff somehow).

Been thinking about how this community was my life-line, especially that first year after Acacia died. But I often come back to what my midwife said at my 6 week postpartum visit after Acacia died - she's still not here. 4 1/2 years later, she's still not here. 4 years later, Reid is still not here.

Love to you! And remembering Reid with you.

Catherine W said...

I'm still here.

She still isn't.

And I also, from time to time, feel like a complete disaster. Sigh.

It will be six years this summer. It's not quite working out as I assumed or hoped either.