Trying to adjust to life without my son...
Tuesday, January 11, 2011
On my own
D.G.'s grandfather passed away late Saturday. D.G. left today to drive back to SK for the funeral. He can only get a few days off work and driving 10 hours there and 10 hours back in 2.5 days is not something that D would really appreciate. D has met her great-grandparents a few times, but she doesn't "know" them and she's three, how would she sit through a funeral? There are family members going to be there that she would like to see, but they will all have things to do for the funeral. It's just not a good idea to take her and luckily for me, that means I don't have to go either. I can't deny that I have no desire to go to a funeral and have to pretend that I am upset about D.G.'s grandfather's death instead of my son's. D and I are going to stay here are home so she can keep to her normal routine and I can deal with the impending visit from AF. (Nope, no Christmas "miracle" for us this year and I'm down to 2 cycles left to get pregnant before Reid's 1 year anniversary.)
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3 comments:
If you don't want to go then don't. And please don't pretend. You are right in everything you said. I'm new to your blog but also a loss mommy. I'm thinking of you as you near Reid's angel day
Much love to you Car. Wishing you and your dear D.G. peace and love and hoping a BFP comes your way!
I am also a new reader to your blog and you are very right, don't go if you feel you don't want to. My hubby's grandmother just past a few months ago and we did go to the funeral, it was SO hard for me. I felt like I was walking right back into Bethany's funeral and everything came flooding back, don't put yourself there if you don't have too.... I am praying you get your miracle soon! My daughters birthday annversary is May 3, 2009
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