Wednesday, December 8, 2010

Tree torture and a Giveaway

So we put up the tree last night. I know that neither one of us wanted to have the tree out but D was so excited about putting all the decorations she has made at preschool on a tree that we had to do it. Of course the only decorations on that tree are the ones she has made at school and the tree is tucked away in the corner of the basement so it's not like we went crazy with the decorating. I didn't cry during the whole process but I really wanted to. That tree should be covered in shiny, sparkly crap except for a 2 foot band at the bottom that Reid could reach.

But there is one upside to having the tree up, it gives me a place to temporarily keep my new projects until they go to their new homes. I made an ornament for Jenni's Ornament Swap for a lovely mama who lost her baby girl nearly 4 years ago. It took much go.ogling to find something that I thought looked good and was actually possible for me to create. I did find something that fit this criteria but now I have a new problem. I am now addicted to gluing wrapping paper onto plastic ornaments. In fact I feel bad that I haven't done any yet today. Since I can't stop gluing, I have made ornaments for some other babyloss parents, including the fund-raising coordinator at the library. Here's what the one for her looks like:

I currently have a blue one on the go for one of the founders of my support group. I have to do one for Reid and one for D since she thought this one was for her (because of the letter D, oh to be 3 and completely wonderfully self absorbed) but those can wait since I have until Dec 24th to get them done.

However since it's the season of giving, I want to make one for one of my wonderful readers who have given me so much love and support. I'd love to do one for everyone of you but since it takes about 4 hours to make each one, I just can't do it in time to get them in the mail to have a hope of getting them to you by Christmas ( I know that it won't get to the UK in time, but we will still be remembering our babies next year too so please comment even if you are across the pond.) So leave me a comment, telling me how long you have been reading my blog (even if you just arrived in time for the give away) and how much you love me, even if it's just because I make you feel warm with my talk about how cold it is here. (-10°C or 14°F right now) I'll let good old pick a winner on Friday afternoon. (1 pm MST)

You can also start thinking about what initial or symbol (like a star or heart or snowflake) you would like on your ornament and if you want it to be blue, red or a green/red mix. (I ran out of the silver and gold stuff a few days ago. )

My hot glue gun is calling my name, time to get back to work.


Anonymous said...

Hi Car. This is a beautiful ornament. I would be honored to be in the contest.
i have read since shortly after Cullen died- which was in September.
I'm not exactly sure why I keep reading here.. I connect with something in your voice....

PS- it is cold here too- and I live in the south where it is not supposed to get this damn cold! ;o)

B said...

i wasn't going to enter but then you mentioned a snowflake, dammit! and now i have to.

i don't even know how long i've been reading. maybe since may or june? seems like a long time. oh and it's been about -10C here too, although it's warmer than that now - thank GOODNESS.

and i love you tons. i hope you know that! :)

Missy said...

Hello there lady! I've been reading since August and I stuck with it because everything you wrote seemed to come straight from my own mind. I used to marvel that maybe you were psychic and then I learned to understand. I feel like we share a very similar experience and even though it sucks pretty bad I love you all the more for it. I just started reading the Good Grief Club by Monica Novak, have you read this?

Ava's mummy said...

I have only just found your blog and I really like the way you write. I have been a bit slow on the blogging front and am finding such solace in hearing the voices of other mamas such as yourself who miss their precious babies so very much. I wish none of us were here connecting for the reason we do however.

I would love to take part in your giveaway, you are very talented. They are clearly made with much love.

Abbie xx

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Dana said...

The ornament is beautiful. I am struggling with putting up a tree this year as well. Since I don't have another child asking for it, it hasn't happened. My family is coming over for Christmas, so one will have to go up eventually. I think I'll just have someone else come over and do it.

I have been reading your blog for months now. I can't even remember when I started. Probably in June or July.

It is just as cold here as it is where you are. I'm not a big fan of winter!

If I'm lucky enough to win, I'd love a blue star with "J" on it.

It is so nice that you are doing this!

Tenielle said...

That's so beautiful!

I think I actually found your blog last month by googling my own name and the word "babyloss" (or something along those lines) *blush*

I'm only a month ahead of you in this horrible road we have to travel after losing my own son at the very end of February, ad you articulate yourself so much better than I can at times! I'm in Australia, so it's not very likely I'd get the ornament in time if I were to win - but as you said, next year I'll still be missing him.

Lots of love and Xmas greetings,

Angela said...

That ornament is beautiful. I started reading here shortly after Charlotte died. I don't remember when exactly it was, but I know you were one of the first I found. Your blog helped me feel a little less alone in those awful early days.

Proud of you for putting up a tree. I've spent most of the month hiding on my couch with a pillow over my head.

missliany said...

These are so pretty. I have been reading your blog since August, or maybe September...just after Chloe died. Yours was actually one of the very first I started following.

Sadkitty said...

I would Love one of those with a J on it for Juniper. I have been reading your blog for a while now, since May, or possible sooner (but that was the first time I could find a comment from me.)Thank you so much.

Amanda said...

Gosh, I don't remember when I started reading your blog...sometime this summer probably. And I do love your blog! I remember liking it because your posts were short and poignant and heartbreaking and exactly what I was feeling.

I would most definitely request a star in red for my Stella. I've been thinking more about how once I, hopefully, have a baby in my life I will get a tattoo for my babies. A star for Stella and maybe an Owl for my little growing Owl.

Nice job on the cards too!

Glo said...

I've been reading since your first post :(

Blue with a bird would be my request.

Anonymous said...

I have been reading your blog for a few months now -found you because of our commonality in losing our sons. Love the ornament. I'd prefer a blue with E initial.