Wednesday, November 3, 2010

Trying to avoid it

So it's another 3rd, this time November 3rd which means it's been 7 months. And I'm trying not to think about it because Mother Nature (that nasty bitch) has made it so that I am about to ovulate and thinking about dead babies is not conducive to making more babies. (Funny how that works because if I didn't have a dead baby I wouldn't be worried about making babies right now.)

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At my last counseling session, my counselor suggested trying another form of therapy, EMDR. (there's lots of info here so I won't get into details.) I know I'm not getting better, I can see myself getting worse with every anniversary and bfn, but I have no idea how to make myself feel better. Just letting myself live with the grief and waiting for time to pass isn't working. I have no idea if this will work for me, but I guess it's worth meeting the therapist who uses it to see if she thinks it will help. Has anyone else had any exposure to EMDR?

6 comments:

lis said...

u know what's funny? i read medical records for work and the woman i read about today was having this treatment. never heard of it before! it seemed to really be helping her get over a v traumatic past. i hope this it is something that brings you peace.
gl w the baby makin!
xoxo
lis

Sadkitty said...

I haven't done that treatment yet. But...oddly enough,I am here at 9 months out and ovulating like a MoFo. And reading blogs, writing blogs in bed, dressed for "success" but in no way in the mood at all. but it's time and the gettin' needs done.

Angela said...

I'm sorry you're not feeling better. Maybe it is time to try something new/different.

Sometimes I feel like the only reason we dtd anymore is to try and get pregnant. The ttc process is stressful during the best of times. Hoping for your bfp.

Jessica said...

Sorry you are not feeling better. Sounds like an interesting therapy. If the doctor thinks that it won't hurt but could help you then I would say why not try :) (((hugs)))

Missy said...

Big hugs for the 3rd of the month (and a BFP). I've been thinking of acupuncture (for all the wrong reasons) but this seems interesting. You'll have to let us know how it goes.

HSQUARED said...

Yes, I have done EMDR. I was super nervous but walked away feeling much better, actually walked away with some answers. Keep in mind, you might feel drained the rest of the day, I sure did.