Self Portrait after loss
I looked through hundreds of photos to find something to post today.
The only pictures that truly show how I felt on the inside after April
2010 are from the hospital and they are far too painful to share. After
that I did a very good job of avoiding being in front of a camera for a
year and a half. And I wore sunglasses any time I left the house.I just felt so hideous and fat and ugly and I didn't want anyone to see me. My husband took this picture in our back yard while I was watching D run through the sprinkler. Even while watching her at her happiest, I was fighting not to cry.